Benjamin & Amara

we're never given anything we can't handle!

2010-09-17T22:29:00.003-06:00

WOW! it's been so long since we've blogged I dont even know where to start! I believe our last post was way back in March and so much has happened since then! Right now, BJ & I are expecting our 3rd child :) I am 24 wks & 3 days along. Up until now, this pregnancy was great! & then-- on Tuesday I went in for my regular OB appointment and immediately got sent to Labor & Delivery at the American Fork Hospital. With AJ & Ami I delivered early due to high blood pressure & diabetes. & once again, my blood pressure is acting up! I dont know why but with this pregnancy Ive been experiencing some not so great things! things that i've never experienced in my whole 20 years of being diabetic! just recently w/in the past couple months or so-- BJ and I had noticed that we were starting to lose money a lot faster and we had no idea where it was going??? we went over bank statements and purchases and found some things that just werent right! on our statements we had purchases for cigarrettes, money pulled out at odd times of the night, and other weird random things. I really started to worry because I knew that most of the things happening and being purchased weren't made by us! Then-- one morning i woke up and did my normal morning routine. Went to my purse to grab my insulin before i made breakfast for me and the kids and when i opened my purse-- i had 7 packs of unopened cigarrettes! along with that, i had receipts and on the receipt the time of purchase was on it and it said the purchase was made at 4 am! with no recollection of any of this-- i became really concerned and decided to give my dr a call. I went in for an appointment with my endocrynologist & diabetic management specialist and they told me that I am experiencing what they call black out spells OR BO-Spells. I've noticed that thru all the hardships that we're going thru. I seem completely conscience thru all these episodes that I go thru but-- I really AM NOT ALL THERE! & afterwards, i have no idea what i've done! I've found myself doing things that i wouldnt normally do! Things that arent me at all! It seems like, I go after things that I feel we need more of like money! and things that we dont have but- ARENT MINE! i've been evaluated by my dr's a couple times here in the hospital where i've had a couple episodes & they say that my spells are at a level 4 with 6 being the worst! They fear for my kids being under my care due to my "black outs" and warn me not to be by myself anymore until i do deliver becuz it can happen anytime! my worst fear is that i might do something w/o knowing and put my kids in danger. this is probably one of the hardest things ive experienced and its not even close to over. i am praying dilligently for better health and for the safety of my kids. im NOT crazy! its just another stepping stone that im going to have to pull myself over! right now-- im concentrating on getting healthy and carrying this beautiful spirit inside of me as long as i can. even though the dr says that the BO Spells will stop once i deliver i feel like its just too much! i want things to go back to normal. i dont like feeling like im being watched or not trusted! but-- i know i can do it! as for my kids. I LOVE YOU SO MUCH! you are what keeps me going! i want nothing but the best things for you! AJ, you are so smart! you've brought so much joy to my life! giving birth to you has seriously been thee greatest thing! it's taught me the meaning of LOVE! i thank God everyday for allowing me to raise you and watch you grow into the handsome young boy you are becoming. Amiahnrah Nevaeh-- you are the definition of BEAUTY! a true angel! you've shown me strength and taught me that no matter how hard things get-- you just have to fight and get thru it. Thru the short 17 months that you've been here w/me. you've endured so much! your the strongest little girl i know! i love you two more then anyone will ever know and mommy promises-- im gonna get thru this! I LOVE YOU!

Amara

L I F E

2010-03-12T16:04:00.002-07:00

L I F E

right now, I'm sitting in the hospital with my Ami and thinking about how much my life has changed in the past two years! I am not only a wife but-- im a working mother of two! As I look back, it seems like not long ago I was just the free spirited girl, working, playing, and trying to figure out what my purpose in life was. And now-- I feel like I've got it all figured out! IS THAT POSSIBLE?? There are some little things that I still wonder about but for the most part I feel that I was put here to be w my kids! & my husband! I've been so blessed w such a loving and caring man! and then, I was blessed w two beautiful children that bring more joy then I can explain to my life! I've found myself being extremely greatful for all that we've been blessed with! For the oppurtunity to be loved & to love! for the privilege to raise two beautiful children! and for the experience to live life happy and content! I feel like I've been so short when it comes to expressing my grattitude! and from now on-- im going to live life with a positive attitude expressing how greatful i am for the big huge things and even the minor things :) becuz, life is great! IF YOU CHOOSE FOR IT TO BE!!

<3>

NEW YEAR, NEW CHALLENGES, NEW GOALS!!

2010-01-02T21:17:00.002-07:00

WOW!! 2009 is gone and 2010 is here!!

2009 was an awesome year for our family!! We accomplished so much!! And finally, we're all finally home together healthy and strong!! As I look back at 2009 all I see are the countless blessings that our family received!! It's amazing to see the progress that our children have made and how close we've all become!! I am eternally greatful to have my two beautiful blessings Alamoti & Amiahnrah and am even more greatful to have my loving husband by my side as we walk into 2010 ready to conquer any and everything that is comin our way!! I have a good feeling about this year and know that if we continue to go about life one day at a time with a level head on our shoulders we cannot fail!! Were so greatful for everyone that was a part of our 2009 & look forward to many more exciting activities with you!! :) LETS MAKE 2010 GREAT!! HAPPY NEW YEAR

LOVE, THE LAVAKIS-- BJ, AMARA, AJ & AMi

A WEEK FULL OF BLESSINGS!!

2009-08-26T23:40:00.003-06:00

us after we came out from our sealing :) just missing Ami :(
BEAUTIFUL Amiahnrah on her blessing day :)

some of the family after our sealing :) the GREATEST DAY EVER!!

My brother #5!! Go RED-DEVILS!!

AJ's bday cake :) can't beleive he's 1 already :(

just some pictures from our fun filled week :) it truly was beautiful! I look forward to many more memories when our girl comes home to us :)

This week was absolutely wonderful! We started with our beautiful babygirl Amiahnrah's baby blessing :) she wasnt able to get out of the hospital for it but it was beautiful nonetheless! :) I cannot believe how grown she looks! She definately has a BEAUTIFUL STRONG spirit! Our week was definately busy! After we had Amiahnrah's blessing we had family flying in everyday Mon-Thurs for our sealing that we had Friday morning at the Provo Temple :) it was thee most beautiful experience I've ever had! Even though Ami wasnt able to be there with us. I know she was there in spirit. My little AJ looked so handsome in his white :) it was great! Then that night we went to my little brother's first senior varsity game at Springville high school. All dressed in white my family went and supported him as he played front and center as captain all night :) it was so great to see him out there! All his hard work has definately paid off! AND-- i cant even believe it but-- my AJ is officially 1!! On Saturday we had his first bday party at UTAH lake with friends and family from all over! There was lots of delish food and great laughs and fun all day :) it couldnt have been any better :) now, we are prepping for Amiahnrah to come home! It's definately been a long hard and tiring 5 months but its been well worth it. The blessings are just pouring down on our family and we're loving every bit of it :) Thanks to all the family and friends that came and supported us during this fun filled week. We love you all :)

Love, The Lavaki's-- BJ Amara AJ & Amiahnrah

A LIFE CHANGING LOVE-- FOR MY BABYGIRL!!

2009-05-27T14:46:00.000-06:00

I am posting this for my little girl Amiahnrah who is currently in Primary Childrens hospital in SLC. She was born at 26 weeks at 1lbs 13 oz. Shes had continuous spouts of sickness getting better then sick again and back and forth. and this—Its just a public prayer from a loving worried mother that is constantly praying that her little girl will pull thru healthy and strong!

I LOVE YOU PRINCESS! & I KNOW THAT BEFORE I KNOW IT, YOUR GONNA BE HOME WITH MOMMY, DADDY & YOUR BIG BROTHER! STAY STRONG! & CONTINUE TO FIGHT!—ALL THE LOVE MY HEART POSESSES! YOUR MOMMY!

Our dear gracious father in heaven,at this time i come to you with a broken heart and contrite spirit to thank you for blessing me with such a beautiful spirit! I thank you for trusting me enough to send me such a sweet perfect angel and continuously count my blessings as i wake up and know that she is alive and well—breathing and living! Father at this time i ask thee to please, continue to watch over my angel. continue to give her the strength that she needs to continue to progress and grow! Please, continue to keep a special eye on her. Watch over her when I am not able to be there with her that she’ll be able to receive the love and care that she needs. Help her to overcome all the odds that she is up against and help her to know that even though at times im not able to be with her. she is ALWAYS in my heart and my thoughts. Father thank you so much for all you’ve done for me and my family. Thank you for the trials and the hardships that you’ve given me for i know that they’ve done nothing but made me stronger! Thank you for giving me the strength to wake up every morning and know that everything is going to be ok. And thank you for watching over me and my family constantly. I love you so much and I am so sorry for any disappointments that have been caused by my doing. Help me to continue to be strong father. Help me to always move forward and NEVER back! & please forgive me for any shortcomings and imperfections i have. Thank you for all that you’ve blessed me with father. With all my love and thanks I say these things in the name of Jesus Christ Amen

Amara Lavaki

BLESSED!!

2009-04-09T18:46:00.003-06:00

MY GORGEOUS PRINCESS!! AMIAHNRAH NEVAEH

MY PRINCE!!

MOMMYS LITTLE FIGHTER=)

MOMMYS FAVORITE!!

PERFECTION!!

WOW!! life is full of suprises!! Lately, our family has been going thru a lot!! Some situations really tough and hard to deal with and others just minor!! But-- our girl is here!! Yes, I know-- its way ahead of time!! 3 whole months early in fact!! but-- shes doing well!!=) I swear, For such a small spirit she sure is alert and very agressive!! Shes got such a strong spirit!! For a while there I honestly had no idea what was going on with my body!! All I knew was that I hurt all over and didnt feel like myself at all!! It was heartbreaking becuz it got so bad to where I couldnt even get myself to get up and play with my son=( It was awful!! Finally, dr's started to notice this girl isnt gonna stop coming into the ER until we find out whats going on!! DUHHHHHHH!! sometimes i swear, dr's arent the smartest guys or gals in the world!! but-- eventually we found out what was going on and I had a infection in my body!! So bad that it required SURGERY!!!!!! soooo scary!! but-- with faith, and hope!! I was soooo gung-ho about it becuz I just wanted the pain to stop!! I wanted to feel better and be able to pick myself up again and play with my lil guy=) BUT-- then I got a shocking wake up call after I had been given all the numbing and sleeping anesthetics that the infection was so bad, they needed to get my baby girl out of me as well becuz it started to affect my kidneys and my liver!! =( talk about scary!! All I know is, even though times are harder then ever and we're put in certain situations some harder then others.. With faith we can never go wrong.. I've been so blessed with such a loving family both mine and my husbands!! and i've been blessed with such a strong and caring husband!! I can honestly say that I dont think i've ever been so in love with BJ=) he truly is my strength!! But-- other then all this my two guys have been great!! They've been so good to me thru it all and definately have kept a smile on my face even on the toughest days.. Im just soooo greatful!! My lil baby girl is so beautiful!! A fighter!! with a strong spirit and such beauty=) Thanks to everyone who has come thru for us!! without you guys i dont know what we'd do=)

Love, The Lavakis

LOVING LIFE!!=)

2009-03-09T21:44:00.002-06:00

Lately, things with us have been actually going really well=) Things are slowly coming together for us and the blessings just continue to roll in!! We've received word from our bishop that in about a month and a half we'll be able to go to the temple=) we are so excited!! its something that we've longed for and have been working so hard to get and now its finally within our grasp and we're sooooo thankful and excited for the experience!! BJ has had multiple job offers and it just seems like we've waited so long and FINALLY all our patience hard work prayers and hope is paying off!! i cant even express how greatful we are=) AJ is peeking 24 lbs now!! he runs around our apartment in his walker and talks sooooo much=) here are some recent up to date pictures that we've taken. things are finally looking up!! and we LOVE it!!=)

BJ. AMARA. AJ & AMiAHNRAH

THE LAVAKIS--

AJ TALKING TO HIS SISTER=)

OUR FAMILY DAY AT THE PROVO MALL!!
MOMMY & DADDYS MUSCLE MAN!!

HE LOOKS LIKE HES SAYING PRAYER=)

MOMMYS FAVORITE=) SOOOOO HANDSOME!!

BABY #2 IS. . . . . . .

2009-02-26T11:00:00.002-07:00

A GIRL!!!!

we went to the dr yesterday at 2 o'clock and found out that our new addition is going to be a beautiful baby girl!!=) we're so excited!! my due date is july 6th and i swear, this pregnancy is flying by so fast!! we'll definately keep everyone updated!! just thought we'd share the wonderful news!! things with us are going really well!! still looking for a new car but-- we're managing!! hopefully things are going well with everyone else as well!! we love you all!!

BJ. AMARA. AJ & BABY AMIAHNRAH-- THE LAVAKIS

growing growing growing!! =)

2009-02-11T15:10:00.003-07:00

OK!! so-- AJ is going to be 6 months on feb 22nd!! is that crazy or am I tripping?! hahaha-- honestly, i cant even imagine my life without my little monster!! everyday is such a blessing!! waking up to him yelling at me!! and when i turn over and make eye contact with him getting a HUGE smile totally makes me think WHAT IN THE HECK WOULD I DO WITHOUT YOU!! i love him so much!! it's been a while since we've been so crazy busy!! with me expecting and being 4 months ALREADY!! its like i cant get enough time in the day!! but-- I LOVE IT!! AJ is now about 17 lbs and 27 inches long!! hes a big boy!! trying so hard to crawl and rolling all over the place!! seeing him grow it just makes me speechless!! =) below i took some pictures of him and the one in the reigndeer sleeper is becuz since he can roll i couldnt dress him!! id get his legs and by the time i got one in he was on his stomach!! so i trapped him and put him in that and he totally made it look CUTE!!=) he smiles now and laughs so loud and is so ticklish on his neck and legs!! things really are going well!! slowly, we're getting our stuff together and prepping ourselves for baby #2!! i cant believe how fast this pregnancy is going!! my parents laugh at me cuz i say i dont even feel pregnant i just feel HUNGRY ALL THE TIMEEEEE!!!!!!! but ya-- things are good!! just enjoying everyday given to me and looking forward to more days of smiles, laughter, and playing with my monster=)

LOVE, AMARA. BJ. & AJ+1 :)

SECRETS WITH EXCITEMENT!!!! =)

2009-01-21T20:37:00.002-07:00

WELL-- for the past two months my mom, brothers and sisters and myself have been secretly planning a SUPRISE 50th birthday party for my dad=) its been so hard to keep quiet becuz its such a exciting thing! we want so bad to just let EVERYONE know what's going on. What we need eachother to do! Who's decorating, bringing drinks, what time should we start. BUT-- we can't talk about any of this out loud in the house becuz if he hears it the whole plan is SHOT!! its crazy hectic but at the same time so much fun!! We've put so much time and effort into this party and the biggest suprise is gonna bring my hard headed straight forward dad to tears and i just know it!! even his kids from Missouri are going to fly in and since it's a suprise he cant know a thing about it! So they get in late tomorrow night and have to hide at our SMALL SMALL SMALLER THEN SMALL apartment til Saturday at 4 o'clock!! its crazy!! BUT-- i love it!! im just so excited to see the look on my dads face!! =) anyway-- other then that, things are good!! just working, taking care of my little monster and enjoying life!! cant wait for the big day!! JANUARY 24TH, 2009 shhhhh-- its a SUPRISE!! =)

Amara

WE'RE SO BLESSED!!

2009-01-17T15:23:00.003-07:00

AJ's NEW TOY!!

IT'S SO COMFORTABLE!!=)

HE EVEN SLEEPS IN IT!!

SO EXCITED FOR BANANAS!!=)

AND HAPPY NEW YEARS!! WE WENT SWIMMING ON NEW YEARS!! AJ's 1ST TIME!!

man!! lately, since we've had AJ I literally feel like I've been blessed with so much!! All the blessings we receive daily!! My baby's smile=) and just every little thing I am so greatful for!! I am truly blessed!! To be able to wake up to a wonderful man every morning!! A BEAUTIFULLLLLL baby boy who is just the joy of my life right now!! and just EVERYTHING!! I cant express it enough!! it's been a while since we've updated our blog cuz we've been so busy with things but I do have tons of pictures of AJ and some of us=) He's already eating REAL rice!! and his favorite baby food is BANANAS AND SWEET POTATOES!! hes such a joy!! Things with us are going really well!! hope everyones having a great new year!! we love you ALL!!

BJ. AMARA. &AJ

OUR CHRISTMAS!!

2008-12-26T14:17:00.003-07:00

Our christmas this year was VERY simple!! =) we had so much fun and all we did was spend time with our families! nothing too big! just christmas eve we spent the night with BJ's family and woke up had a amazing breakfast and read about the birth of christ. Then, we got ready to go to a day full of volleyball=) went to my parents house had a great lunch! then played volleyball til about 5-- after that we treated ourselves to a movie and went home to sleep! I really enjoyed this christmas! even though financially we werent able to do what we wanted! we were more greatful to just have eachother. i cant even begin to tell you guys how much i love the two guys in my life! im looking forward to what the future has in store for all of us! 2009 is gonna be an amazing year! MERRY CHRISTMAS EVERYONE!

with LOVE, Amara, BJ & Baby AJ

the year is almost at an end!!

2008-12-22T16:08:00.003-07:00

well, im just sitting here at our apartment. i just got done making lunch for my little bro- his friend and bj and now we're all either napping.. watching a movie.. or ya-- thats about it=) but, after i cleaned up their mess!! hahaha-- i sat down and started to think that man.. the year is almost over!! and SOOOOOOOOO much has happened!! im now a mommy=) and expecting another!! its been over 6 months since ive been married to my honey!! and life seriously has just been nothing but joy and happiness!! it got me thinking-- man.. when i came to utah-- i had no intention of even staying.. i was here to visit and go to conference then i was supposed to be on my way back home to hawaii to go back to work and just continue my life there!! but-- things didnt go quite as planned and now look=) im so happy for the little pivet in my journey!! even though i came out with completely other intentions and plans.. im glad that things turned out the way they did!! im glad i met the wonderful man i now call my husband!! and im soooo soooo greatful for the beautiful spirit our heavenly father has blessed me with!! life in itself is out of this world!! and i keep thanking heavenly father over and over for being so kind and generous towards me and blessing me with such a wonderful life!! this year has truly been full of suprises!! full of trials and tribulations!! but in the end i've always pulled thru and found myself on top once again moving forward!! im so greatful for everyone that is in my life!! both family friends and just random strangers!! becuz each and everyone of them have had a impact both small and large on me and have made me the person that i am!! 2009 is going to be amazing!! and already im setting goals to make sure its full of success and happiness!! BJ & AJ i love you both with all my heart!! you are the reason i smile everyday!! the reason im happy to wake up in the body im in!! you've given me purpose here on earth and made me realize that life is a blessing!! its a journey!! and its up to me to make it a good one, or a bad one!! thank you for keeping me on track!! and making me stronger!! i love you so much!! from now til eternity!! its just US!!=)

love, AMARA--- Your wife, & Your mom

THE ONES THAT KEEP ME ON MY TOES!! & KEEP ME HAPPY 24/7-- MY WORLD!!

I LOVE YOU SO MUCH!! THANK YOU FOR MAKING ME SMILE ALWAYS!!=)

TIME FLIES!!=)

2008-12-16T13:16:00.002-07:00

WOW!! I cant even begin to tell you how fast time seems to have flewn by since I've had AJ=) hes growing up so fast!! He reacts to me talking to him.. Smiles=) and talks back ALREADY!! i love it!! but most of all i love him!! being able to experience having him and just watching him grow and do more day by day is just amazing to me!! I love him so much!! I love being a mother!! He's brought so much joy to mine and BJ's life and we're so excited for this next one too=) It's been a bumpy road and already I've spent some time in the hospital but-- Im greatful that I have the privilege to give life!! just some pics of my prince!!=)

life is full of SUPRISES!!

2008-12-06T19:56:00.002-07:00

WOW!! its been wayyyyyy too long since we've updated our blog!! but-- things around here have been crazy busy!! and we havent even started our christmas organizing!! anyway-- guess what?! we're expecting AGAIN!! i know!! ALREADY?? well, the answer is-- yes!! was it planned?! hahaha no-- but, if Heavenly Father trusts us enough with his loving spirits then we'll take what we can get!! This time around, its actually been a lot harder for me health wise!! i feel like my body just isnt ready!! but-- im trying to make due with what i can!! things around here have been good!! busy!! but still GOOD!! just been working and watching my baby AJ grow!! hes 12 lbs and counting!! he smiles now and talks more then i thought possible!! its great!! other then that, us LAVAKIS are doing well=) trying to get in the christmas spirit=) i love christmas!! the environment, the joy and just the spirit!! hope everyones holidays are running smoothly so far!! we love you all!! =)

AMARA. BJ. & BABY AJ

an ENTIRE week of updates!!

2008-11-10T14:30:00.005-07:00

Wow!! Things this way have been pretty hectic so we havent really had time to get on and update on anything.. But-- thing's are still GOOD!!=) this week I had so much going on!! AJs dr's appointments. My uncle passed so we had a funeral and that took a lot!! Plus work and I started RUGBY!!=) i absolutely love how busy we are though!! Im just glad we are using our time wisely and being as productive as we can!! Nothing much has really changed though.. My brothers came down to visit and we hung out with them and they ALL got to meet AJ=) it was a blast!! I dont know if most know my brothers but they are a bunch of characters!! I love em to death!! Their sooooo talented and they take such great care of me!! It was the first time BJ got to hang out with them too and he said " honey, your brothers are foreal the only guys ive ever known to just welcome me with OPEN ARMS!! and just kick back with" i was so greatful to hear that from him!! cuz when it comes to me-- their not the nicest guys=) anyway-- we got to play ROCKBAND and just do what family does=) it was a blast!! ALSO, my grandparents have been here with us for the past couple weeks and are taking off tomorrow=( wish so bad that they would just stay but, this isnt home to them!! anyway-- we've had a pretty busy week but, things are still going great!! just thought we'd come on and put up some new pics and say ALOHA*

my cuzzn Willie!! BUSTED!! hahaha

Joe & Kalae

my brOther aaron and my baby AJ=)

(L-R) Adam, Keo, Loa, Max & Donnie=) Love them!!

my brother Aaron singing on the ROCKBAND mic=)

brother MAXWELL on the ROCKBAND drums=)

me & Aaron and a little bit of Adam hahaha

(L-R) Christine, Fano, Me, Aaron, Adam & Donnie hangin out!!

Me Grandpa & my little AJ=)

OUR LITTLE ANGELS BABY BLESSING=)

2008-11-03T00:08:00.003-07:00

Sunday, November 2, 2008

I have got to say that this day was absolutely perfect!

Baby AJ was so good! and he looked like such a big boy!

It was amazing! He received a beautiful blessing from his

GREAT grandfather on my side Samita Vaoifi and man,

after that-- i must say.. there's a lot in store for my little man=)

it was so beautiful! Afterwards we had a little gathering to celebrate

HIM and it was great! Tons of food and lots of close family and friends!

Thank all of you that came today for him! We appreciate it more then you know=)

we love you all!

The Lavakis- BJ, AMARA & AJ

OUR HALLOWEEN=)

2008-11-02T23:43:00.005-07:00

This year our little family split our night and went with both me and BJs family=) we really enjoyed ourselves! we had the most fun with our nephew KJ though=) such a cute, funloving little kid!! heres some pics we took that night=) HAPPY HALLOWEEN!!

THE LAVAKIS: BJ, AMARA, &AJ

RANDOM

2008-11-02T23:31:00.003-07:00

AJ is doing so well=) and one of his all time favorite things to do-- is take nice long naps with ones he loves most!! this time-- it was grandpa lavaki=) precious!!

AJ's baby blessing info updated=)

2008-11-01T16:43:00.001-06:00

The address for Alamoti's Blessing is at The Tongan Sunset 12th Ward at 1020 S 1100 W in Provo.

The eating is a POT LUCK for family and friends held at The Best Western Cottontree Inn at 2230 N University Parkway Provo at 12-4 in the Aspen Room. Pass the Lobby entrance to the hotel and the next parking lot to the left is where the Aspen Room is. Some landmarks to look for if you get lost are Bon Losse School of Cosmetology and the Pizza Factory are all in the same area.

November 2, 2008
9:00 am

Hope to see you there=)

just some recent pictures of my prince=)

2008-10-29T21:21:00.004-06:00

just some pictures of AJ at random times!! im having so much fun with him!! he's grown so much!! MOMMY LOVES<3>

The Lavaki's

ALAMOTI SIOTAME LAVAKI'S BABY BLESSING!!

2008-10-27T00:01:00.005-06:00

AJ's baby blessing is going to be on
NOVEMBER 2, 2008
PROVO SUNSET 12TH WARD
9:00 AM
365 S 800 W PROVO UT, 84601
ANY & EVERYONE IS MORE THEN WELCOME!!
we're so excited for everyone to meet him!!
Afterwards: All of our families and friends are invited to
Best Western Cottontree Inn 2230 N University Parkway Provo Utah 84604 801-373-7044 at 12:00 PM POT LUCK
just to celebrate the life of our little angel!!
Having him home has been such a joy!! we love him so much!! he grows more and more everyday!! Hope to see you all there!! we love you all!!
The Lavaki's=)

Another LONG LONG night and I won't allow myself to sleep! = (

2008-10-16T23:32:00.001-06:00
HOLY SMOKES!! well-- yesterday my baby got his 2 month shots=( and ever since then he's been really fussy and had a slight fever!! And me being mama!! I can't sleep!! I'm so worried about him=( But-- the doctor said that a slight fever and fussiness is completely NORMAL!! so-- ya, thats a good thing=) I just cant sleep becuz I want to be able to see if things change!! If his fever gets higher.. If he needs to be comforted or just ANYTHING!! Man, its crazy!! hes growing so much!! for a premie my baby is looking great!! =) having him home is amazing!! i mean, ya i got the bags under my eyes from lack of sleep.. the all day long headache from not being used to so little sleep and ya.. THATS MY LIFE!!=) hahahaha, anyway--

AJ is great!! Today was BJ's first day back to work & I cant even begin to tell you how sad I was=( Having him here with me constantly was so great!! Our whole situation being somehting completely new to both of us really was a lot easier becuz the responsibility was split and we both did what we could to make things easier on eachother!! but-- when he left me today.. I almost cried!! Not cuz I'm retarded and weak or anything its just becuz thru it all BJ has been my rock!! and when I needed him for the little things today he wasnt there=( MAN!! Honestly, Im not just saying this.. but, I have an amazing husband!! He's been so great thru EVERYTHING!! Such a friend and.. I cant even put it into words!! He's just amazing!! Always there when I need him to be and always doing all he can to make sure I'm ok and our baby is ok and that our every need want desire whatever is met!! How lucky am I?! I LOVE HIM SO MUCH!! to be so blessed is just out of this world!! But, I am grateful=) I feel like I've been so fortunate in every way. All the things that have been put in my way both good and bad have brought me and BJ closer as husband and wife and made me stronger and better prepared to take on the challenge of being a mother!! I dont know, I think its just lately-- I've seen all the little things and I've honestly gained a whole new appreciation for it all!! My husband, My son, and My life!! its ALL great!! =)

UPDATES: for those of you that know my family well you all know that a big reason for my family moving out here to UT last year was for my kid brother Alema!=) such a great kid! Obedient, Driven, Focused and Determined! I've never met a kid that works as hard as he does! He's amazing! Well, he plays football for Timpview and was on the team when they went to state and won last year=) and now, theres one mroe game against Provo High til playoffs! They beat the state record of undefeated games and are doing so well! Hes on Varsity and the potential he has is out of this world! Now that I have AJ Im not able to attend but, I know hes doing great! Good luck brother I love you!

Just wanted to say thank you to everyone who's been there for us in thought and prayer lately! We appreciate it more then you know and we love you ALL!

Amara

Trying to get things back on track!! Routine keeps me sane!!

2008-10-15T21:05:00.002-06:00
Oh wow!! =/ well, since I've had baby AJ my timing & everything is just off!! i've found my self going to bed at around 4 or 5 in the MORNING!! waking up at 7 or 8!! so only REALLY getting like 2 hours of sleep!! Working, trying to get my house clean, laundry done and just feeling like before, I had ALL the time in the world!! & now, I have NONE!! zip, zero, zilch!! it's crazy!! I can't get ready til AJ is ready. Cant eat til hes eatin. Wow!! Just thinking about it has me laughing!! Its so crazy how fast things went from simple and easy to still simple but HECTIC!! i love it though!! =) Today was AJ's first follow up appointment and oh my goodness!! My handsome guy is doing so well=) hes 8 lbs 12 oz and 20 inches long!! He's gonna be a big boy!! His dr said he's looking like a full term baby and hes still not at his due date=) So-- happy!! I must say though, I had to set up another appointment for him next week and this one, I'm not so excited about!! Today he got his 2 month shots and there were 3 of them!! UGH!! It broke my heart seeing him in so much pain!! I swear, as soon as the nurse poked him I just wanted to rip her to shreds for making my baby hurt!! I mean, dont get me wrong-- Im a loving person.. But my babies little body has been thru so much already!! and he just keeps getting more and more and more and more and MORE!! i just wanna SCREAMMMMMM!! But, back to that appointment=( my little guy has to go in and get circumsized on next Friday the 24th!! When the dr brought it up I was like.. OHGOSH!! WHYYYYYYY?!?! he said, mom do you think you can handle it?! right away I looked at BJ and said-- OH NO!!! This ones ALL you!! I've heard from some of my girlfriends how their experience went with their sons and ya-- I won't do it!! I'll be out in the waiting room waiting for BJ to come get me when its all done so I can go and woo my baby=( anyway I'm scared!! but-- it needs to be done!! I love being a mommy!! =) i love the responsibility that comes along with it!! Theres so much but I feel like it keeps me grounded=) Things are going really well with our little family!! Only getting better as time goes by!! I've seen AJ change so much!! hes already going to be 8 weeks on Friday!! It's gone by so fast already!! before I know it hes gonna have his mission call!! =( but-- until that time does come, im just gonna enjoy every second of it!! L.O.V.E.

Amara

SLEEPLESS NIGHTS, HEADACHES, ENDLESS WORRYING!! MOTHER HOOD!!

2008-10-15T04:58:00.002-06:00
HMMMM!! Ok!! I knew this was gonna happen!! But-- honestly, I dont think there was any way to prepare for it!! Hahaha-- Im so tired I'm laughing!! How crazy is that?! I think in the past week I've only got like maybe 8 hours of sleep!! it's insane!! My head hurts!! Im always light headed but yet, still manage to keep a smile on my face and go about my day with energy and a sense of humor!! whoo-- who would'a thunk it?! ANYWAYS------ tonight, I actually had a little fun time!! =) some of the girls (Lavi, Tema, Lose, Malia & Liliana plus the babies) came over to pay us (Baby AJ) a visit and hang out=) HOLY COW!! i really didnt know how much I needed a little visit with some laughs!! its crazy!! at first i was so tired and just wanted to climb in bed cuz AJ was FINALLY asleep!! but-- when they got to our house.. the laughs began and I just felt so relaxed!! I LOVE THEM FOR THAT!! it was so much fun!! Just hanging out and kicking back!! being our crazy selves and just laughing!! its amazing what laughter can do for you!! =) anyway, MOTHERHOOD!! living with no sleep!! smelling kinda funky sometimes!! and being so tired but never admitting it!! THATS MY LIFE=) and I wouldn't change it for the world!! Baby AJ is doing so well!! He's filling out!! I know he's gonna be a BIG BOY!! but, a CUTE one=) He's been home for a week now and I gotta say-- its been crazy & fun!! i LOVE it!! I'm so looking forward to what else is in store for me here coming up=) All I can say is, BRING IT!! Ok-- I think I should try & get some sleep now.. Tomorrows another full day of motherhood & I need at least some energy!!=)

THANK YOU THANK YOU THANK YOU LAVI FOR SHOWING ME HOW TO JAZZ UP MY BLOG!! I OWE THIS TO YOU GIRLY!!=) LOVE YA!!

AMARA

SOOOOO HAPPY!!

2008-10-12T00:09:00.002-06:00
Ok, so i know everyone is probably waiting to hear from us on how we're doing with baby AJ home finally=) and-- ohmygoodness!! there is so much to tell! words cannot express just how great it is to have him home with me! =) even though im getting less sleep at night, covered in pee half the day and smelling like throw up.. IM TOTALLY OK WITH THAT!=) becuz i love him that much! I swear, i tried to picture what it would be like having him home but everything i pictured didnt even come close! its amazing! i love him so much! finally mommy gets to dress her baby, hold him, kiss him, love on him all the time! and even sleep with him! =) its got me smiling all the time! i know you all are probably wanting more but, i miss him already! all you need to know is, hes doing wonderful! and i am so happy and grateful to have him home!=) love you son*

AMARA

TEARS OF JOY!! FiNALLY!! THE DAY IS HERE!! OCT 7, 2008

2008-10-06T16:02:00.002-06:00
I never thought this day would come!! It's been exactly 6 weeks 3 days and 3.5 hours since my son was born and finally-- I get to bring him home!!=) After all this time our wish is finally coming true!! And, Im so emotional its crazy!! The feeling of having him home just fills my body with joy and excitement!! To know that I'll no longer have to travel elsewhere to see my own son!! To have him in "our" home!! To be able to hold him for as long as I want. Have him in his carseat while I drive-- OHMYGOODNESS!! i swear, i just might scream=) I can't even begin to express how truly grateful I am for his beautiful spirit!! I feel like I've been waiting for this day all my life!! =) I've been having these insane dreams about having him home.. Dreaming that I hear him crying while we're all asleep and I get up fix him a bottle=) change his diaper and sing him back to sleep in bed with me.. Then-- I wake up and he's not there!! =( but, just knowing that its actually going to happen has me walking around with a smile from ear to ear on my face!! I love AJ so much!! he's truly changed me for the better!! Knowing that I'm now a mommy and I have the priviledge to raise a child and teach him all I know just has me stoked!! To know that ill have a little one running around calling me mom.. Asking me all the hard questions and making decisions based on what he's been taught from ME!! and on what he thinks is right!! Im so excited to watch him grow!! and to take care of him!! tomorrows the day!! and i can hardly wait!! YESSSSSSSSSS!!=)

Amara

THANk yOU!!

2008-10-04T15:32:00.003-06:00

just wanted to send out a quick thank you to all our family and friends that participated in our family fast for baby AJ this past Thursday and Friday!! =) we cant even express how much we appreciate all the things you all have done for us!! we love you all so much!! just some quick updates-- AJ is doing so much better!! He's now completely back to normal =) cute and heavy as can be!! we're now at 6 lbs 9 oz!! almost double his birthweight!! hes off oxygen!! and only has a heart monitor and respiratory cord on him to keep track of his blood pressure and stuff. Honestly, I feel that all our friends and families prayers have played a huge part in my babys progression!! and i cant thank you all enough!! I just got off the phone with his pediatrician and he asked me and BJ to come and stay the night WITH AJ in a hospital sleep room on Monday night and then he said if things go well we're looking at being discharged at 11 a.m. Tuesday morning=) I cant wait!! I feel like everything my son has been fighting he's finally conquered and now hes being rewarded by FINALLY getting to come home to his mom and dad!! This feeling is great!! Thank you so much again to everyone thats kept us in your prayers!! it means the world to us!! We'll write again soon if anything changes.. but if anything, we'll be back with more news on how we're holding up with the midnight cries and diaper changing=) CANT WAIT!! Mommy&Daddy love you son=) xOxO

AMARA

i LOVE HiM!! THE ONE THAT MAKES ME SMiLE=)

2008-10-02T11:07:00.004-06:00

JUST VENTING!! SOOOOO MUCH TO DEAL WITH I DONT KNOW WHERE TO PUT IT=(

2008-10-01T10:11:00.002-06:00
ALAMOTI SIOTAME LAVAKI I LOVE YOU SO MUCH!!!!! wow!! so-- my son is supposed to be home with me today-- but, things just arent quite going the way we planned!! my poor baby is struggling a lot and we've yet to find out what exactly is going on!! i know that recently we put up a post about how thankful we are for the power of prayer and how we havent given up but at times-- i just feel like i cant handle much more of this!! i just want him home!! the stress of almost living in the hospital for the past 2 months is building up and its almost taken complete control over me!! i feel helpless!! its like a never ending cycle!! hes better, we talk to the doctors about getting discharged and then--- DOWWWWWWWWNNNNNNNNNN we go!! im not mad-- just really frustrated!! i feel so sorry for my baby!! his little body is going thru so much and still we have no idea whats going on?! i know that hes got the best care and i know that hes a fighter but part of me wishes that "I" could just make it easier on him!! take a little bit of his pain and suffering away and just make it ALL better!! but-- I CANT!! so, i dont know what to do=( but-- im not leaving his side!! im gonna be there regardless!! just feel like i gotta let off a little steam!! i hope and pray that this all comes to a end soon-- in a positive way.. im counting on all these tests that are being run to come back with some feedback that will help us get my baby better and SERIOUSLY ready to come home!! being home when we've spent majority of our day at the hospital just doesnt feel right becuz I'M supposed to be the one taking care of him!! watching over him when he's sick!! having him wake up to ME & BJ!! not complete strangers!! THIS IS SO HARD!! i knew that it would be-- but, noone pictures this!! having a child and them spending the first month and a half in a hospital with complete strangers!! =( i mean, i am there as much as i can be!! but when im not i feel so guilty!! its so exhausting!! i just want it to be over!! i want things to be like i pictured them before!! i want us to be home together!! laying with him on our bed!! having a movie playing and him right there beside me!! cleaning and him in his bouncer just watching!! watching me cook!! just BEING THERE!! i want him here with me all the time!! but- hes not!!=( and it breaks my heart!! i love him so much!! ive shed so many tears during this whole process and by the looks of it, im nowhere near dehydrated!! but ya, besides all the mixed emotions i have running thru my head i just want my son to know that i love him more then words! i long for the day that we bring him home! the first time im going to get to experience him crying in the middle of the night becuz hes hungry! losing sleep becuz he feels like being held and talked to! i dont care! i dont need sleep! i need him home! AJ, i loveyou so much son! Mommys so sorry she keeps breaking down like this=( but-- seeing you go thru all this really does break my heart in two! i wish i could make it all better! but- i guess we just gotta wait it out! hang in there bud! i love you and before we know it, just like i keep saying.. youll be right next to me at home where you belong! with ALL my love, your mom

AMARA

WE ARE SO THANKFUL FOR THE POWER & COMFORT OF PRAYER!!

2008-09-23T13:14:00.004-06:00

RELIEF!! so many emotions and feelings to deal with thru this hard time!! BUT-- honestly, just completely turning everything over to our heavenly father and allowing him to take care of everything has made me feel at peace!! I know my baby is going to be ok=) He's STRONG!! I guess, as a mother-- you just have to have your little break downs and let the tears fall and then, your back to your strong self!! Ready for any and everything that lies ahead!! Last night was probably the roughest night I've had thru all of this. Seeing my son in the condition that he was. He didn't even look like hisself! And it totally caught me off guard! I waited til early this morning before I was comfortable going home to shower and come straight back and the doctor that was there before I headed out told me that things are turning around. He said " Mrs. Lavaki, your blessed! You have a fighter on your hands!" To hear those words, totally made my day! just in the last couple hours AJ has been taken off his breathing machine I believe its called a C PAP?? he's back on room air attempting to breathe on his own and is doing great! The swelling in his face has gone down tremendously and and now he can open his eyes and look at his mommy! =) being able to see him and touch him today calmed my heart immediately! Just to be able to hold him and tell him that he's doing so good! and tell him I love him did the trick. We're both gonna get thru this no problem!=) I was holding him a couple minutes ago and I said, " Son, you promise mommy you'll fight real hard to get better so we can go home! I LOVE YOU!" i know he's gonna keep his promise to me! And even though its hard, I'm just gonna have to tough it out and wait patiently! I just wanna personally thank all you guys who have been following our blog thru this hard time! Reading all your comments and having your support comforts us a ton! And it does more then you know! We love you guys! So-- just so everyone knows.. today has been a better day! He's back to fighting his little battle and is slowly making his way back to where he was just a couple of days ago. Son, I'm so proud of you! You scared Mommy=( but, I know its just a minor set back! Keep fighting for me and know that I'm right here by your side every step of the way! I LOVE YOU-- MOMMY!

the pictures we've posted up top were taken this after noon at about 12:30 so, he's getting back to his chubby handsome self=) still a little swollen-- but, we'll take it!
thanks again for everything guys! it means a lot=)
AMARA&BJ

SO-- TORN!! WE CAME SO FAR!! AND NOW LOOK!!

2008-09-22T22:51:00.002-06:00
I cant even try to explain the way I feel!! For those of you that have been following our blog, you know that in the past month, I've given birth, my baby was 2 months early so he's been in the Newborn ICU since then and just recently we got REALLY excited becuz we got the ok from the doctor to take him home!=) BUT-- the day after we got the ok, baby AJ had two different times that he just completely stopped breathing without reason! =( OHMYGOSH!! Honestly, I am so emotional its unreal! I cant even begin to explain how much I love AJ! ever since the day he was born.. My eyes have been opened to a whole new view at life! He's helped me learn a new love! And seeing him make so much progress was so great! He is so strong! But then, the day that I'm supposed to go to the hospital and sign his discharge papers I get a call 30 minutes prior informing me that he's been moved BACK to Nursery A (the intensive unit. Nursery B where we "WERE" is the well baby side) My heart broke in two! All I could think was-- Why?! I just saw him a couple hours ago! I literally felt like my heart was in two and the more I heard the dr say, the worse it got=( 2 days have past since then and the dr's have found out that AJ has what they call Rhino Virus & he has a UTI (Urinary Tract Infection) Rhino Virus is basically what we as grown ups call a simple cold-- but for a baby of his calibur its really severe and the mucus in his sinus' get so thick that it causes him to stop breathing! total-- AJ has had 16 episodes of what they call A&B's (when he stops breathing for 20 seconds or so-- and his heart rate drops. yesterday, he had 3 and today he's only had 1 so we're making progress! I really am trying to stay positive and try to keep telling myself-- "Amara, this is just another test of your faith. Keep strong for baby! He needsw you!" but-- when I see him, I can't help but break down! I saw him today and his eyes and his face were all swollen! I almost passed out! To see "MY" baby like that! Helpless! Sick! In pain! and Uncomfortable! and I can't do anything about it! Just rips my heart out! I feel so bad! All I keep saying to him is, Son-- I love you so much! hang in there for mommy! you promised! =( I'm so sorry! I mean, what can I do? I cant see myself without AJ! I've had it pictured perfectly in my head! And he's supposed to be home with me! it's so hard! All I keep doing is praying and asking heavenly father to please!! just give me the chance to raise him! to watch him grow up! see him play sports and just enjoy the precious moments of motherhood! I long to have him with me! To comfort him and make everything better! But, for now I'm leaving it in the Lords hands. I trust that everything will be all right and I know that my baby is a fighter! BABY!! your in mommy's prayers! and your in my thoughts and dreams constantly! I love you so much! be strong and keep fighting becuz this is only a small wall that we have to get over together. I love you baby! a million hugs and kisses plus more!

AMARA

FINALLY!! THE DAY HAS COME!! =)

2008-09-20T10:02:00.003-06:00

UPDATE EVERYBODY!! MONDAY I GET TO BRING AJ HOME!! SO HAPPY!! SEEMS LIKE ITS BEEN FOREVER SINCE I'VE HAD HIM AND FINALLY HES DOING SO WELL THAT THE DR'S ARE LETTING HIM COME HOME!! =) MONDAY HE'LL BE EXACTLY A MONTH OLD AND I'M SO EXCITED TO HAVE HIM THERE WITH ME!! ITS BEEN SO EXHAUSTING FOR ME AND BJ TO GO BACK AND FORTH TO THE HOSPITAL CONSTANTLY EVERYDAY AND NOW, ITS HARD FOR ME TO EVEN IMAGINE NOT HAVING TO DO THAT BECUZ MY BABY IS ALREADY GOING TO BE WITH US=) IM SO HAPPY THAT, THAT DAY IS HERE!! BABY AJ, GOOD JOB SON!! I LOVE YOU!! ONE MORE DAY AND YOU'LL FINALLY BE WHERE YOU BELONG!! KEEP DOING IT SON, MWAHHHH

AMARA

I THOUGHT IT ALREADY HIT ME!!

2008-09-18T11:48:00.002-06:00
OK!! so im sitting here at the hospital with AJ and BJ is at work. It's the normal everyday routine but for some reason I am having all kinds of things run thru my head and all I keep saying is-- OH MY GOSH!! he's beautiful!! and he's mine!! not that I didn't have this run thru my head before!! but-- being here BY MYSELF!! being able to hold my son, feed him, and just look at him!! I'm a mommy=) and the feeling is not only great but-- so much more then that!! I can't even describe it!! He's so beautiful!! He's so perfect!! and I feel I've never loved like this before!! To know that he's mine!! I made him and brought him into this world is just so crazy!! I knew that eventually the day would come where I'd be able to experience this-- but, now that it's finally happened I can't find any words that could possibly come close to the way it's made me feel!! I'm so happy and grateful!! AJ has totally changed my whole outlook on life!! He's opened my eyes to a whole new world!! I feel like life literally has just begun!! And the journey that lies ahead is going to be the most exciting and adventurous one yet!! Im so ready for this!! To be a mom!! A wife!! and just live life=) I know I'm rambling on and on but foreal-- Life is great!! Baby AJ, Mommy loves you so much son!! Thank's for choosing me!! There hasnt been a day since you were born that I havent smiled continuously!! Sooner then you know it, I'll have you home!! mwahhhh--

AMARA

ALMOST HOME BABY!! =)

2008-09-16T19:01:00.003-06:00

BABY AJ UPDATES=)
GROWING MORE AND MORE EVERYDAY!!
CURRENTLY 6 LBS 4 OZ 18.5 IN LONG
3 WEEKS AND 3 DAYS OLD
AND STILL GOING!!
I LOVE YOU SON!!

just keeping everyOne updated!! AJ is dOing sO well!! as yOu can see his face is definately filling Out and he gets handsOmer and handsOmer every day!! hes nOw a little Over 6 lbs and the prOgress he is making is still Over the tOp!! all the nurses On the flOOr call him the ADVANCE baby becuz he is sO smart fOr his size and age!! he amazes me!! i literally grOw tO lOve him mOre and mOre every day!! me and BJ are dOing well=) just still staying strOng and hanging in there hOping we'll be able tO bring him hOme sOOn!! keep us in yOur prayers!! we're sO greatful fOr all the help and suppOrt that we've receieved you guys are great!! thx sO much fOr everything!! we lOve yOu guys sO much!! baby AJ!! mOmmys here sOn=) keep gOing strOng and yOu'll be hOme where yOu belOng befOre yOu knOw it!! hugs and kisses!!

AMARA

practically living in the hOspital!! exhausting but-- i wOuldnt change it fOr the wOrld!!

2008-09-02T16:26:00.004-06:00

Wow!! today my baby is 11 days old!! and he's making great progress!! If you didn't know, he was born 2 full month's early and so he's been in the Newborn ICU ever since!! BUT-- the progress that little AJ is making is incredible!! He's such a fighter!! Everyday we come up to the hospital early in the morning we get good news from the neonatologist thats on call and does his check ups. They are amazed at how well he's doing!! =) It makes me so happy!! I'm so greatful for him!! I love his little spirit so much already!! At times it catches me off guard thinking that ONLY 11 days ago he was inside of me!! And the only interactions I had with him were his little kicks when he was adjusting inside of me!! His kicks when he was hungry and when he didnt agree with what my body was going thru!! And to tell you the truth, I MISS THAT!!=( but-- I'm so greatful now, that I am able to love on him=) Kiss on him=) change his diaper and hold him!! and just see him!! He's beautiful!! I can't wait for the day that the doctors say-- Mr and Mrs Lavaki we have good news, You can take him home!! I long for that day!! To wake up to him and not have to drive to a different location to see MY son!! I cant wait!! But for right now, this is where my baby needs to be!! Getting stronger so I can take him home HEALTHY and STRONG!! Even though it is draining being here 24/7 me and BJ are gonna keep doing it regardless becuz he needs us here=) I LOVE IT!! wish us luck!! before anyone knows it, my little family will be home!! And I cant wait=)

Amara

the time has cOme=) ALAMOTI SIOTAME LAVAKI welcome to this world son=)

2008-08-28T00:40:00.002-06:00
On August 22, 2008 at 1:31 pm at the Utah Valley Regional Hospital in Provo Utah my son Alamoti Siotame Lavaki was born=) I honestly can't say that I've ever felt a love like this before! He's now 5 days old and I feel as if my world would crumble if there was anything to happen to him! He's brought me so much joy! So much peace! And given me a happiness i thought only existed in a fairy tale world! =) I LOVE HIM SO MUCH! Now, not only am I a loving and happy wife-- but I'm a mother! I never knew how it would feel to have that experience! That privillege! But now that the time has come, its undescribable! I long for my baby! Day and Night! He came to me 2 months early so he is still in the Newborn ICU- But the progress my son is making is incredible! He's a fighter! =) He was born at 3 lbs 15 oz and 16 inches long=) I was 30 weeks pregnant! Honestly, My little family has been so blessed=) My husband was amazing during all of this! He gave me support I didnt think he had in him! But the whole time he stood by my side=) stronger then a rock! =) I owe my hubby the world! He's given me so much! And honestly, the grattitude I have toward him can't even be put into words! All I know is, this is truly the beginning of something great! But mommy's ready! =) Alamoti- this is for you baby! From this day forward I vow to take care of you! To love you! and to do everything in my power to make sure that all your needs are met! Thank you for choosing me and daddy! The love we have for you is already so great and powerful! But it gets stronger every day! I cant wait to bring you home baby!=) I LOVE YOU! Mommy

BJ, thank you so much for giving me life! For showing me what true love really is! For sticking by my side thru EVERYTHING! and never hesitating when theres something I need! You truly mean the world to me! I cant even begin to imagine my life without you! Since the day I met you life has been nothing but laughter and happiness! And now, we turn over a new leaf as a mother and father=) Hand in hand I look forward to this journey with you babe! Thank you for all you do! I have been so blessed! I love you from now til eternity! Plus more=) Your my world! My king without a crown=)

yOur wife, Amara

ALL iN A DAYS WORK!!

2008-08-05T12:50:00.006-06:00
WOW!! I seriously find it so crazy how things work out!! Honestly, when my whole pregnancy started-- I felt like I would be one of those women who were sick the whole entire 9 months!! Sick as a dog, unable to move, and just without energy!! BUT!! I was wrong!! =) I swear, the whole process of preparing for our son has got me more psyked and hyped then ever before!! I have all the energy in the world!! I'm constantly cleaning, doing laundry, cooking and working and just-- ITS AMAZING!! I love it=) At times, I swear im superwoman=) hahaha.. but yea, we'll leave that for some other post=) anyway-- Words cant even begin to describe the amount of excitement that runs thru my body daily just knowing that someday soon me and BJ are going to be blessed with a BEAUTIFUL perfect spirit=) I long for the day that i'll be able to hold my son, kiss him, bathe him, and just love him and take care of him!! It's going to be great!! Right now, I'm just about done with all my duties here at work and since I work from home that means a nice movie and a snack is whats next on my to do list=) MAN!! we've been so blessed!! BJ and I had our family prayer and our scripture reading last night and we're slowly making our way back!! We had a very intimate conversation about what we need to do to make things COMPLETELY right and the whole process and honestly, I feel so good about things=) We say we're happy and blessed now, but last night when we were talking-- all we could think was.. Imagine how much more happy and blessed we're gonna be when we make it to the temple=) I cant wait!! I told him, my son deserves to have all the temple blessings that are in store for us!! and who am I to keep him from that?! It's all gonna happen!! and when it does!! I am going to be the HAPPIEST woman, wife, mother, etc on earth=) I LOVE PROGRESSION!! =)

Until next time--

Amara

THE BEGINNING--

2008-08-05T12:50:00.005-06:00

WOW!! I don't even know where to begin!!
Recently, life has thrown some serious curve balls
our way. But we've managed to stay on track!!
Our lives together have barely started and I must say
it's more then i could have ever hoped for!! I feel like
I've been so blessed!! I am married to a "WONDERFUL,
LOVING, AMAZING, TOO GOOD TO BE TRUE" man!!
Someone who makes me feel like I'm invinsible!! A "STRONG,
HANDSOME=) CARING, KIND, COMPASSIONATE" being!! I mean,
my gosh!! life-- is GREAT!! being married has been a challenge!!
But a good one!! It's taught me patience and it's shown me a
different kind of love!! A love that has no boundries!! It's the
greatest!! I never in my life thought i'd be able to find someone
that would treat me the way he does=) someone that takes such
good care of me!! AND MORE!! i am so in LOVE!! and so fortunate
to have him!! BJ SIOTAME LAVAKI-- I LOVE YOU!! im looking forward
to our journey together!! from now, 'till ETERNITY---

YOURS, AMARA